The Baby Journals

This is a picture of the cost sheet I got from the clinic. Add to that the testing that we’ll be having Wednesday – I’ve been told around $800-$1000. Most of the terms up there are Greek to me at this point, but I’m sure I’ll be quite familiar with them in the very near future. I just wanted to put this up for everyone to see. Sometimes I say how much it costs, and I can hardly believe it myself. I know some may be thinking that there’s no way that this could be so expensive (I know, I think that too sometimes), but here it is in black and white. Very real, very expensive. However, I know that when we have our baby(ies!) it will be worth every single penny.

I’d just ask that if you’re the praying type, please pray specifically that every area above that I need to spend money on will be covered somehow. Some of it already is thanks to our gracious family and friends who’ve invested in our future. I can’t say thanks enough. Also, if you have any creative ideas that we could use to raise funds, please share! Otherwise, we’ll be selling anything that’s not nailed down on eBay ! Anything it takes.

Here are a few pictures from the Baby Boom Concert. There are more if you care to look over on my Flickr page. Enjoy!

We’ll be traveling to Jacksonville for appointment number two next Wednesday (24th).  This appointment will be a doozie.  They told me on the phone to plan to be there for at least two hours.

This appointment will be filled with blood tests, sonograms, a certain “analysis”, and a consult with the IVF nurse coordinator.  Jay’s shaking in his boots about having to have blood drawn – I think I’m used to that part by now!

I haven’t updated about the insurance stuff lately, so here it is.  There are plans out there that will cover certain IVF medications and testing – just not for me.  Apparently I have what they call a pre-existing condition and the coverage I need and want is totally unavailable unless I want to wait another year.  I honestly can’t fathom sitting on my hands for another year while time ticks away.  So we will be paying for this out of pocket.  Thankfully, we’ve had wonderful people like you who’ve donated towards this cause – again we say thank you.  So this appointment is paid for, and we’ll just see where we go from there.

Keep praying…

~Brooke~

We are assuming that you all want to know how the show went on Friday.  I wish we had better words to describe the feeling it gave us, but my friend Chris beat us to it.  Please read his post about the show, and let him know we sent you over.

We really just want to thank everybody that participated and made it a night that we won’t soon forget.  The bands:  Alex Watson, Mckendree Tucker, The Inside Out Band, Family Life Worship Team, and Fred McKinnon & Friends .  You all were amazing.  We enjoyed every second of the music, your talents are vast.  Also, without TJ & Kim Thompson, this event would have never happened.  Thanks for being great friends.

We’re so thankful for everyone that came out and supported us.  It was a great night.

Even though the night was about raising money, it meant so much more than the money to us.  That being said, we know you all want the bottom line…well, we don’t have the completed count yet,  but we came home with $1,469.  There is still pre-show ticket money out there, and as soon as we get the total, I’ll update this post.

We are a little closer to our dream.   Our next step is our “testing” appointment.  We’ll be calling and making that on Monday.  Hopefully, very soon, all of you who promised babysitting services will be able to make good on that promise!

We love you all,
~Jay & Brooke~

 I just ran across this song tonight while searching for the perfect song to go with our pre-show photo slide show.  It is the one.  Every word of this song reaches deep down into my very being.  Tears are flowing just thinking about the words “forever faithful”.  These are words I need to hear, to remind myself often that He is just that.  We are not the only one feeling these feelings.  He has felt them first, and is feeling them with me, and it’s taken some time and sometimes I may feel like I’m falling back into the darkness, but slowly, they are starting to look less like scars…

It’s been a hard year
But I’m climbing out of the rubble
These lessons are hard
Healing changes are subtle
But every day it’s

Less like tearing, more like building
Less like captive, more like willing
Less like breakdown, more like surrender
Less like haunting, more like remember

And I feel you here
And you’re picking up the pieces
Forever faithful
It seemed out of my hands, a bad situation
But you are able
And in your hands the pain and hurt
Look less like scars and more like
Character

Less like a prison, more like my room
It’s less like a casket, more like a womb
Less like dying, more like transcending
Less like fear, less like an ending

And I feel you here
And you’re picking up the pieces
Forever faithful
It seemed out of my hands, a bad situation
But you are able
And in your hands the pain and hurt
Look less like scars

Just a little while ago
I couldn’t feel the power or the hope
I couldn’t cope, I couldn’t feel a thing
Just a little while back
I was desperate, broken, laid out, hoping
You would come

And I need you
And I want you here
And I feel you

And I know you’re here
And you’re picking up the pieces
Forever faithful
It seemed out of my hands, a bad, bad situation
But you are able

And in your hands the pain and hurt
Look less like scars

And more like
Character

 Less Like Scars by Sara Groves