Vivid Dreams
Merry Christmas all! It’s difficult to write over here very often. Partly because there’s not much going on, and partly because it reminds me that there’s not much going on. I honestly just sat here for about 5 minutes wondering what I could say, and I don’t have much.
Only this…last night we were having dinner with some friends and somehow the conversation turned to having kids. Of course anytime that comes up, I always end up rehashing the story because someone hasn’t heard it before. That’s not so bad – I’ve conditioned myself to talk about it ad nauseum without so much as flinching. The sucky part is that when I woke up this morning, I’d had the most vivid pregnancy dream ever. There was a point in the dream that I actually remember looking down at my pregnant belly and seeing the outline of a tiny foot pressing against me. I even had the baby in the dream (but for some reason I couldn’t tell what sex it was). It really sucks to wake up from a dream like that, only to realize that it wasn’t real. I tried to push it out of my mind. I didn’t even say anything about it to Jay – of course it made it easy not to because we forgot to turn on the alarm and ended up waking up at 9:00, so rushing was in order.
Anyway, I’ll keep chugging away even if it takes way longer than I want it to. I’ll update as things happen, of course. I hope everyone has a wonderful Christmas & you get everything you ever wanted!
God Bless,
~Brooke~
Fred McKinnon said,
December 15, 2007 @ 8:53 am
Brooke,
tough post to read, tough post to write. Joy and I both share in the dream for ya’ll, and are so eager for the day when it becomes a reality … and we do pray for you both often!
Fred
Amanda said,
December 16, 2007 @ 11:55 am
Hey girl, I was just wondering why you havent written in awhile. I tried to email you the other day but it came back, so yall must not use the jamesandbrooke email anymore. Anyway you guys have been on my mind quite a bit lately. I am not really sure the reasoning really, I guess cause we both share the same frustrations with this pregnancy thing. I to, dreamed a dream similar to that the other day, that I woke up and had a feeling I need to take a test, and so I did, and saw 2 lines, and ran in there to Chuck and said WERE PREGNANT, I was screaming and hollaring, just was so real. Then I to, woke up and realized it was only in my dreams. It is so heartbreaking, but we have to keep our heads up and keep moving forward. God has a plan for us, we don’t know what it is, or what it is to bring, but all we can do is hope and have faith that one day very soon both you and I will be holding our precious miracle in our arms. Its very hard for me now, because not only do I have a nephew, but Chucks sister just had a little girl. And trust me, they bring me hope just by all they have been through themselves, and now they have that little bundle of joy. As much as I tear up everytime I hold Ava, it brings me joy to know that no matter what happens with us, I will still have my little niece and nephew and I love them just the same as they were mine. Please call if you ever want to get together and go to lunch, it might help talking to someone that understands. I pray for you daliy, and I know that god will answer my prayers when its the right time. Hang in there…love ya!
Amanda